I have seen a trend in the way that I have been answering the question, “how are you?” All too often I respond, “I am tired and I am weary.” In my answer I am striving to be more honest and vulnerable with others but I am beginning to sound like a rehearsed record.
I have been able to gain some perspective and realize it does not have to be this way. Just because this season of life is filled with the hustle does not mean that my soul has to be weary.
Do you know why?
I have a God who has me. Simple.
Now, do I allow myself to feel His embrace and my burden lighten? Of course not because there is pride in me that strives. But because of this season and my responsibilities, I count on myself to run like there is no tomorrow because that is what I expect from myself.
No wonder I am so tired. It is not because of the activities and duties that I am doing, it is my lack of obedience in allowing my Father to have me. I want to be seen as independent, capable and strong. But because I am not allowing the Lord to take my load, I am only proving myself to be weak.
There is a shift and change that must occur.
So Lord strip me of my pride and do a heart change this season.